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Song About Why I Suck

by Wil Wagner

on Laika (2013)

Before if I fucked up anything I only hurt me
I never hurt anyone, but now there are real people my actions affect
And I cannot stand it
I cannot handle it
I smoke too much weed and watch too much T.V
I always run out of cigarettes, I lie about everything
This used to be me but now it's feeling stale and friendly

And I hate what I've become
But I've never been so proud of what I've achieved

And I steal from my friends, this is how I will tell them
But sometimes I'm broke and when I am I'll do anything
But it's no excuse 'cause none of us have a thing
But you were all honest, I self-aggrandise my own bullshit
Borrow money for food and I spend it on booze
And eat bread from the dumpster and use anything I can use to block out my thoughts
Quiet my brain
I still jump when the pain comes

And I hate what I've become
But I've never been so proud of what I've achieved

And I just want my parents to think that I'm clever and excuse my lifestyle, but my lifestyle has become an excuse formed out of habit
And I just want my friends to know that I'll never fuck them around again 'cause people are everything
And I sing these songs to synch up with the stragglers
And I sing these songs because nothing else matters
And I sing these songs out of fury and fear
And I sing these songs 'cause without them I wouldn't be here with you