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Create, Hate

by Nary

Can you save me now? (Huh)

Can you save me now? (Nah)

Can you save me now?

I'll expose myself
And let you down
Yeah

With the things I say
If I make my own path
Or dig my own grave

I'll watch my beauty bloom
Or burn up in flames
Doesn't matter either way
Cause I create what I hate


Let's take a minute to reflect on my past
Cause it's something I look pass
But I never look at

And as a matter of fact
The only matter is that
If I disregard it

I will just fall right back
Right back in the stress
Yeah
Right back in the mess
With no direction to asecnsion
Cause I buried what's blessed

And only curses are left
But that's cause and effect
So I think it's time I expose myself on the track
Yeah

Take it back
To that maternity bed
When I was just a premature bastard
No wed

And momma couldn't take care of her child
Instead
An adoptee signed and got me
And I never seen my dad

Now, step a few years out the crib and you'll get it
Everyone telling me I should forget it
But how can I leave like my daddy, pathetic
The one I have now is just beating me senseless

And I low-key can't form this in words
Write it out
But nothing works

So I numb the hurt
With tree and church
But God & ganja don't seem to work

Though I feel elevated
When I'm unnerved
When the highs come down
The lows get worse

And that's why I feel this'll never work
Cause every line write
I'm trapped in a verse

So I'll get to the terse
And hope that works
I got misdirection
No self reflection

Ironically this is my blessing
Mindfully mindless
My viewer discretion

Tho everybody think they know me
They don't know this
Everybody tryna show me
What this life is

But my house of cards will only mold me
I'm not folding
So what you say won't mean a thing
Til you finally answer the question that I forgot mention


Can you save me now? (Huh)

Can you save me now? (Nah)

Can you save me now?

I'll expose myself
And let you down
Yeah

With the things I say
If I make my own path
Or dig my own grave

I'll watch my beauty bloom
Or burn up in flames
Doesn't matter either way
Cause I create what I hate

Can you save me now?

Can you save me now?

Can you save me now?

I'll expose myself
And let you down


Expose myself
Expose this hell
Cause everybody knows it well

The newest trend
Yeah
Saddness sells
Sold my soul
To save myself

Give up my wealth
Hope that helps
To show my fam I want them well
Sending money home
But what they probably want's
My better health

And better self
"We're here to help"
How can I just talk it out
My pain pushed you away
And only closer to my grave

Now the only thing that I can say's
I am sorry for that day
If I wasn't so impulsive
Probably woulda been okay

But I'm not okay
Going insane
Hoping every line I make
Gives me clarity
Because I've up and dropped my faith

"But honey Jesus Saves"
Nah
Don't believe those words you say

And I'll tell you why
Pull up a chair
Sit down
Let me explain

Inside my brain
I retain
Every single day
My stepdad came through my door
And the blood ran down my face

Or the time my uncle betrayed our trust
For foreplay
And I couldn't blame anyone but myself
For the way

I was treated
Deceived
Even my adoptee
Sold me for monthly greed
And food stamps to eat

Now tell me is that a way a child should live and breathe
I look in the mirror
And sincerely ask myself
"Nate, please"


Can you save me now? (Huh)

Can you save me now? (Nah)

Can you save me now?

I'll expose myself
And let you down
Yeah

With the things I say
If I make my own path
Or dig my own grave

I'll watch my beauty bloom
Or burn up in flames
Doesn't matter either way
Cause I create what I hate

Can you save me now?

Can you save me now?

Can you save me now?

I was in this crowd
And I will never bow down