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バカか私は (Baka ka Watashi wa) English Translation

by NakamuraEmi

Growing up, falling on your ass, why does it hurt this much?

Getting hurt deeply, holding on to this dull pain
I return to a pitch-black house and have nothing to do but cry all alone
Really, I want someone to talk to, I want someone to tell me it's all okay
Today too, I tightly hug my pillow

I'd intended to leave this boring pride behind 10 years ago
Yet again, it come back, swells seven-fold and makes an appearance

It's probably okay...
It's probably okay to have been a bit idle
"You're an adult, this is embarrassing" is a rigid way of thinking
I'll flush that down the toilet

Am I an idiot?
The important things are all going in reverse but
When you become an adult, of course the things dear to you slip by

Because you're putting on make up for someone
Because you're buying clothes for someone
Because you're cooking for someone
As if that kind of happiness will come naturally

'That red light has gone unchanged for awhile right?'
Even so, while expecting that of myself

Whilst shouldering regrets and the future, you've no choice but to move forward, right?
Lazing around, relying on others in the right way, isn't it best to move onward?
The pathetic reflection of myself in a store window
I'll flush that down the toilet

Am I an idiot?
Pretending to have it together, I've come to live strongly though...
When you become an adult, of course, you yearn for the things you miss
Am I an idiot?
The important things are all going in reverse but
When I become an adult, of course the things dear to me slip me by

Because you're laughing with someone
Because you're eating dinner with someone
Because you're going to live with this person and such
As if that kind of happiness will come naturally
I am an idiot

When you grow up and slip on your ass, It's best to laugh and reach out for someone