[Intro: Jay Stilla *Spoken Word*Poem] *Pray that God see my heart Like my chest made of glass I pray I pray for answers to the questions I never asked I know Temporary Pleasures Those Treasures Never Last All the women and the cash that Ain't forever Never, but I Still keep my heart on the future But my mind Stay off the past It's a race, The human race I got to finish first never last At last, at last I*
[Rap Verse 1: Jay Stilla] I Been up three days, No time to put that sleep in The only time my eyes close Is slowly when they blinking I tried to drown my sorrows for tomorrow With that drinking But that drinking had me sinking So I rose up out that deep end And I"m,,, gone Keep moving on no looking back for it! I keep my past like my past I don't basque on it I guess I'm shooting for the future I'm a smash forward And If I miss I'm off the back board They wonder what I passionately laugh for Maybe cause I'm getting what I ask for I'm separate from you 'Nigga's like the last four Digits of my phone number and 'Nigga this the last call! Calling for you 'Niggas if you sipping on that alcohol I don't even drink no more too worried about the law Waiting for probation to pull up and pull me out the car Then Search through my possessions and violate me for Tylenol...
**[Hook: Jay Stilla]** (*Melodic Singing*) *This ain't life, This ain't living, This ain't living! This ain't life Take me to Paradise, Take me to Paradise I pray that I'm forgiven I pray that I'm forgiven I just pray that I'm forgiven I pray that I'm forgiven This ain't life*
**[Rap Verse 2: Jay Stilla]** Questions resting on my head like an antler I just know I'm S.T.I.L.L.A and what that stand for? Surviving til I learn life's answer And that's like trying to find a cure for cancer Its so hard, I know it's so hard! My close friend keeps telling me "Im going so hard" My family keeps saying that I need to take a long break But I keep working hard because I know destiny ain't gonna wait Hold up, I need to hold up! I see my glass over flowing but I'm grabbing more Cups It's no rush, I'm saying its no rush but my Life moving fast like 'Evora Lotus And Trust no woman or no man especially in a romance Only God can judge me i know god he Loves me So I'm down on both knees and both hands Forgive all these sins that I'm making I'm praying And thank you for being so patient and waiting I"m part of your plan, All that Saying's my hearts in your hands
**[Hook: Jay Stilla]** (*Melodic Singing*) This ain't life, This ain't living, This ain't living! This ain't life Take me to Paradise, Take me to Paradise I pray that I'm forgiven I pray that I'm forgiven I just pray that I'm forgiven I pray that I'm forgiven This ain't life