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Benign

by G $Money

on Do Not Resuscitate (2020)

First girl I ever loved
She got a man
Still stuck around
Cause I was sprung
We were friends for a time
She disappeared
Knowing how I felt
Without a sign
Inside I was dying
And trying to make this rap work
She's gone now
That just made the crap worse
I thought we were friends
But that hurt
Frances cobain Missing kurt
That's how much you worth
But Fuck it
It's time to flirt
I met Christiana
A sweet girl
A diamond reflecting
She always said that
She's a pearl
That was short lived cause she passed away
An accident she got hurt
She died the other day
Faded away
2 months after
I lost my job
Fuck I was dealing with mentally
The door to out
I couldn't reach the knob
This rap shit keeps on pushing me to quit
I think I got friends
Most ain't pushing me to it

Chorus
Just gonna stay here and be benign
Dont worry
I'm just fine
It's not a choice
Can't make my mind. Benign benign

Just gonna stay here and be benign
Dont worry I'm just fine
It's not
Things have taken
A turn for the worse now
Can't commit to anything
Can't put my foot down
Locked in my room
You can't even hear a sound
My brother telling me I need a job
Forgive me
I don't know how
To express
When I'm feeling down
With depression
Don't wanna be around
Just wanna fade away
If I really did suicide
It would only take my pain away
Fuck this
Ima be better
Tired of feeding
Darkness
No sleep
But I spit heat
I stay real
Which is U.n.i.q.u.e
Cause everybody post shit
That they do not be
I ain't scared to open up on a beat
But I can't talk to someone
Who is close to me
In the mirror
It hurts to see
Therapy sessions
Got me on edge
With No emergency