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Who I'll Be (A Self-Deceptive Fantasy)

by Evan & the M's

[Verse]
I'm a husband, father, mother, son, and daughter, infant child in a slaughter or other
Just a president, inter-racial resident, local representative, time to REPENT
Simple farmer, boston bomber, sub receiver, faith believer (thank you god)
I don't believe her!
[Bridge]
I can't quite tell what I'm meant to be
So I rock my sides, oh I outta be
Who I am, oh the dichotomy
So I'll go
[Chorus]
Out looking to find myself
But I define myself
Stuck in a rut
Caught in a rough what?
Use all these titlеs to label me
So I can hope to finally bе
An excuse to play my fantasy
Of who I want to be!
[Bridge]


Only want a piece of the pie
Hoping just to get by
Gotta justify myself before I close my eyes
[Chorus]
Out looking to find myself
But I define myself
Stuck in a rut
Caught in a rough what?
Use all these titles to label me
So I can hope to finally be
An excuse to play my fantasy
Of who I want to be!
[Bridge]
Being an artist, just departed
Who I'm gonna be!
Can I set the real me free? Let's see-
[Verse]
I'm an emo, gone through chemo, the legal laws been evil
Just a psycho in the micro would you be interested in the latest assortment of taxidermist taxidermy? Nevermind I think I should go
All these; a part to play in me, reconstruct my memory
I can't wait to be!


[Chorus]
Out looking to find myself
But I define myself
Stuck in a rut
Caught in a rough what?
Use all these titles to label me
So I can hope to finally be
An excuse to play my fantasy
Of who I want to be!
[Bridge]
Does it matter if I see my family
If my followers love and abandon me
Just let me be who I wanna be!
I lost myself sometime ago
So it'd probably be better just to let me go
[Chorus]
Out looking to find myself
But I define myself
Stuck in a rut
Caught in a rough what?
Use all these titles to label me
So I can hope to finally be
An excuse to play my fantasy
Of who I want to be!


[Verse]
Here's my music, it's amusing
There's my merch, purchase my shirts
So many factors at play on here
But everyone always ends up as queer
So buckle in; you'll never leave
And wait for someone to set you free
[Mix-up Chorus]
Go look and find yourself
End up to define yourself
Can anybody help me please?
Use all these titles to label me
So I can hope to finally be
An excuse to play my fantasy
Of who I wanna be
[Outro]
It seems I've gotta go-
You grew this way so I guess we'll never know
What lies beyond the atmosphere
Your desperate attempts to come in clear
Oh it's your Self-Destructive
Self-Disruptive
Self-Deflective
Self-Defective
Your Self-Deceptive Fantasy!