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Toxic

by Enkay47

on Welcome to My Mind (2017)

[Verse 1]
Congratulations, you made me hate myself
You isolated me from my friends and made me feel
Like you're the best that I can do so im afraid to build
On myself
What the hell, you think that you can take advantage of me
And treat me like a lost puppy
Go ahead and throw me out, b*tch you dont want me
And yeah I f*cking care, I can't pretend I don't
But even if I wanted to i swear to God I won't
Everything I've sacrificed
To make you happy
You took my friends, my self-respect, even my family
Now you ask me if I'm depressed, nah I'm f*cking happy
I love the way that you treated me, yeah come on and smack me
Come on and trap me, come in and tack me
It's almost as if I feel happy to be treated badly
But actually, I'm just madly in love with you
I tell people im done with you but we know that ain't f*cking true
I used to tell myself that you would change
I used to cry myself to sleep and be depressed for days
But hey, I stay with you if you can stay with me
You can say that I'm insane but I know that you'd change for me

[Pre-Chorus]
I want you to love me like you use to, in the first month (haha)
I wish we felt the same love for each other that we used to
When we first begun
Our relationship

Everytime I fell against you, I feel so broken
Down
Everytime I see you smile, I'm still hoping
That we can try again

[Chorus]
This is so toxic, I feel like a monster
Even after all that I've done to you
Broke my back for you, so attached to you
And I just wanna say sorry, it's so toxic
This is so toxic, I feel like a monster
Even after all that i've done to you
Broke my back for you, so attached to you
And i just wanna say sorry, its so toxic

[Verse 2]
I was your Romeo, you were my Juliet
I told myself that one day that we would be newly-wed
Whoops, there we go again, there goes another fight
It's like another f*cking shoving match the other night
And I'm just f*cking sick of this, I'm f*cking sick of you
And every f*cking argument we have has turned it physical
b*tch, are you retarded, can't you tell we f*cking miserable
But yet you stayed because you selfish and its pitiful
And all the sh*t you ritual
Traditional this ridicule is tearing us
Apart but yet I'm stuck because I live with you
And now I don't know what to do because I feel like
I'm trapped inside of a cage, I'm always p*ssed at you
And not to mention I'm ashamed
Because I feel like a broken record yet I'm always saying I can change
I never wanna be the one to blame
I swear to god that if you try to
Leave, then imma put you up in flames

[Pre-Chorus]
I want you to love me like you use to, in the first month (haha)
I wish we felt the same love for each other that we used to
When we first begun
Our relationship

Everytime I fell against you, I feel so broken
Down
Everytime I see you smile, I'm still hoping
That we can try again

[Chorus]
This is so toxic, I feel like a monster
Even after all that I've done to you
Broke my back for you, so attached to you
And I just wanna say sorry, it's so toxic
This is so toxic, I feel like a monster
Even after all that i've done to you
Broke my back for you, so attached to you
And i just wanna say sorry, its so toxic

[Bridge]
I don't care what people say, I be with you anyway
I just want you to be in my life, for me to be in your life
And I mean of course I
Just miss all the old days, and now we just both fight
You warm and I'm cold right
I swear to you I'll stay
This moments a fortnight, emotion is so right
But swear that on this day, The week will be alright
I'm about to heal the poison, I'm, about to find an antidote

[Verse 3]
The reason that I made this track is to make a message
For everybody staring at me with this blank expression
For everybody that's telling me this is fake affection
For everybody that's dealing with this desafe assessment
It's till you get the f*ck out and safe yourself
I know it's hard, but if you stay then you'll get torn apart
I've got a broken heart, and now a tear drop is in the page
Mock, make the chorus start

[Chorus]
This is so toxic, I feel like a monster
Even after all that I've done to you
Broke my back for you, so attached to you
And I just wanna say sorry, it's so toxic
This is so toxic, I feel like a monster
Even after all that i've done to you
Broke my back for you, so attached to you
And i just wanna say sorry, its so toxic